Yesterday was busier than usual. 4.5 hours of facilitating somatic visualization, two hours of dropping in as an alum in a Breathwork container from last year. I got to facilitate and breathe and observe, and recognize just how much I’ve healed.
What struck me most about was how good my body felt after this much space holding.
And it led me to this rant -
I truly believe we are not meant to sacrifice ourselves for the greater good. We’re meant to powerfully support each other in ways that nourish us as well. We’re not meant to be miserable.
I do this work selfishly. It heals me and it feels so so good to do it. AND I get to share it with my friends and family and clients. It builds all of us. The dream is that then the circles of people capable of creating securely attached community grow. I’m already seeing this happening. That’s why I do this. I want us to get really good at being in community with each other. To help us remember how to create communities built on autonomy, interdependence, and right relationship.
When I meet with my future self she doesn’t have a fancy life, she talks about rematriated land and how clean the water is now. She talks about commitment to each other and the land. She points me toward the people who already know this work, whose ancestors knew these agreements. She reminds me that mine did once too, but so long ago.
I am here for all the dismantling of oppressive systems. Ones that expect dissociation and control, perform physical and emotional violence and are incapable of repair. I’m here for decolonizing our minds, bodies, relationships and systems. I’m here for unlearning the neglect/control binary of white supremacy culture. I am here for helping our nervous systems return to the tending instinct that is underneath our relational trauma.
We are meant to follow what we have most energy for, not miserably slog through our days working or ruminating. This is for our greatest good and for the greatest good of our communities.
I’m so grateful for every BIPOC teacher, mentor and friend who showed me paths I didn’t know existed.